Onward

I just mailed my hard drive off to the engineer in Austin, who will mix my album…whoohoo!

At this point I have let go–I feel pretty free, like I’ve struck this balance between ambition and surrender. I feel clear and energized, but also more immune to bouts of low self-confidence and the need for everyone’s approval surrounding the project. I’m just one drop of water in the ocean…I only would like to cool a few people’s brows with my music…but I’m not expecting to turn into a tsunami. (Pardon the late-in-the-workday cheesy metaphor.)

Lately I am getting excited to write again…I kind of want to write with a lightness of touch in the next batch of songs, not just in the music but in the lyrics. I want to work with more images, create atmospheres and tell stories about love. I feel like the songs on “Light Year” (my recent project) are pretty heavy–a few songs about loss and regret (though I try to keep the music grounded in lightness, for the most part.) And I also kind of ignored love for the most part in the songwriting…I think I was trying to prove to myself that I could write about experiences other than romantic love.

I also want to make this blog a bit more interesting to read…it’s been a bit self-involved, mostly because I’m not writing in a real journal (and it’s helped me, symbolically sort of move myself along in the album-making process.) I just read my friend Allen’s blog and it’s so well-crafted and funny…so I will aspire to make this a bit zippier!